Reminiscing . . .

Biglang naalala ang nagdaang pangyayari sa buhay nang makita ang mga previous published ko…hahahaha… Kapag mainlove ka nga naman oh…hahaha…Nakakatuwa rin palang magbalik tanaw… 🙂

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When you can’t remember why you’re hurt, that’s when you’re healed.
-Jane Fonda

Just Got My Attention!

I just saw it in my friend’s  facebook! Hahaha… It just made me smile 🙂

I am so Damn Hurt!

Oh, my God! I think I am the official third party. He is so cold now with me. I think he really misses her woman. I don’t know what to do now. All I know is just to shrug it off.

Yeah! I am so hurt but what can I do? I don’t have any right to get mad at him and demand for an attention.  I am getting crazy here.  I turned the volume of our radio so loud so that however, I can chill but still I am so damn hurt!

I really don’t know what to do now with him! Maybe or I should let things happen. So let it be happen.

Don’t worry Boy! I am still so damn in love with you even you already have her before me.

Sad To Belong To Someone Else

Met you on a springtime day
You were mindin your life
And I was mindin mine, too

Baby when you looked my way
I had a strange sensation
And, darlin thats when I knew…

That its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along,
Yes, its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along.

Oh, I wake up in the night
And I reached beside me
Hopin you will be there

But instead I find someone
Who believe in me when I said
Id always care.

Oh its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along,
Yes, its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along.

So I lived my life in a dreamworld
For the rest of my days
Just you and me walkin hand in hand
In a wishful memory
Oh, I guess thats all
That it would ever be.

Wish I had a time machine
I could make myself go back
Until the day I was born,
And I would live my life again
and rearrange it so that Ill be
Yours from now on.

Oh its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along,
Yes, its sad to belong to someone else
When the right one comes along.

Complicated no more ;-p

We both have partners but we have realized that we love each other.

We didn’t plan to fell in love.

It just happen.

We both don’t know what will happen next.

But we are enjoying each others company even we are apart.

We both don’t care if it’s right or wrong to fell in love at the wrong place and time.

We are the perfect couple,

We’re just not in the perfect situation!

I hope It’s Not the End of the Friendship that We Have

Last Thurdsday I texted my friend na “d n muna kami makakapagtxtan kasi makikipag ayos ako”. Pero ittxt ko naman siya kinabukasan nun dapat eh kaso at that night he said na ‘wag na kami magtxtan muna,Good luck sakin,etc…Pinag-bigyan ko siya sa sabi niyang un, kaso kagabi bigla xang nag chat s fb at tinanong kung “how are we?”..Naibalik ko pa ung tanong niya na “how are we?”..

I got worried by that at bigla b nmn ng nag offline..

SO i texted him if why is he like that?!

Nagreply ba naman ng “maybe, we should end this nalang kung ano man meron tayo, sorry..”

(I ask him why?!)

sabi niya “Yoko makigulo pa sa inyo po ng bf mo”

(Pano siya nakagulo?! Ayaw na ba niya sakin?Nagsasawa na ba siya?)

sabi nya “Wala ako sinabing ayoko na sa’yo”

(Bakit siya ganun?!Nangiiwan nalang, pano ung mga promises na walang iwanan?!As in, BAKIT ang madalas ko matanong!)

I got shocked when he said that “Kasi nasasaktan na din ako”

(Sorry kung nassktan ka pero wala ako intensiyon na saktan ka)

sabi niya “Sabi mo makikipagbati kana di ‘ba.Ano pa silbi ko sa’yo?”

(Anong nangyayari sa kanya?Bakit siya ganun?Ako ba, ano silbi ko sa kanya kahit may gf siya?)

sabi niya “Uhm. Basta. Hirap explain sa’yo.Ngayong bati na kau. Maybe it’s time to know our places na.”

(Nagsasawa na ba siya sa’kin?BAKIT?)

sabi niya “Hindi un. ‘Di ako nagsasawa sa mga ginagawa mo para sa’kin”

(Naman pala. Bakit ganun?)

sabi niya “Nevermind.Just be with your bf nalang. I’ll miss you so much. Para sa’yo din ‘to”

(Para sakin ba talga? Or para sa kanya lang?)

sabi pa niya “ano ba talaga tayo? ‘pag nasagot mo na saka mo nalang ako itxt yung totoong sagot”

(Friends..Close friends..)

“Sure?”

(Kaya ba niya ko natanong kasi ‘di ba niya alam kung ano kami?Ako ba, ano silbi ko sa kanya kahit may gf siya?Umiiwas naman siya sa tanong kong yun.)

“Ano ba sasagutin ko?”

(Ulitin ko..Ako ba, ano silbi ko sa kanya kahit may gf siya?)

“Confused ako”

(Bakit naman siya confused?)

“Hindi ko ‘lam kung may gusto na ko sa’yo or masyado lang tayo close. So ‘kaw pala friends lang talaga. So dapat tigil nalang natin yung things beyond just friendship”

(Sige aminan na, there was a time na nafo-fall na ‘ko sa’yo dahil takot ako na mawala yung klase ng friendship meron tayo at wala naman ibang mangyayari kung magkaganun nga db. So I still remain friends with you, i just wanna be close to you. As in ayoko mawala yung friendship kasi masaya ako)

“Kung masaya ka na, bakit nakipagbati ka pa?”

(Tanga ako eh! Mahal ko bf ko. Kasi parang yung nangyayari nakikihati or humihingi ako ng time nya.)

“So gusto mo buo? Kaya nakipagbalikan ka?”

(Bawal na ba ako makipagbalikan? Bawal ba ako magkaron ng needs. Ramdam ko naman na mahal na mahal mo gf mo eh. Bakit ka ganyan?)

“Aw.Okay. Sabi mo eh”

(Ngayon na nagkaaminan na? Pano na tayo?)

“I don’t know”

(Sige one last question. Mahal mo ba ko?)

“I got feelings for you.”

(OO or hindi lang naman sana isagot niya. I don’t know what to say. Just remember n, I’m still and always here for you. You know naman how to contact me eh. Advance Happy Hearts’ Day!)

That was the sad part of being so close with your friend.  Love can ruin the friendship you have. Sana makakapag usap at magkita pa kami and continue the friendship we had.

;-p

We can’t play this game anymore, but
Can we still be friends?
Things just can’t go on like before, but
Can we still be friends?

We had something to learn
Now it’s time for the wheel to turn
Things are said one by one
Before you know it’s all gone

Let’s admit we made a mistake, but
Can we still be friends?
Heartbreak’s never easy to take, but
Can we still be friends?

It’s a strange sad affair
Sometimes seems like we just don’t care
Don’t waste time feeling hurt
We’ve been through hell together

La la la la, la la la la
Can we still be friends?
Can we still get together sometime?

We awoke from our dream
Things are not always what they seem
Memories linger on
It’s like a sweet sad old song

Worried?!

I don’t know why I am so worried with my friend!

I don’t know what’s happening! Or is there something wrong with my friend, with me or to both of us? Or I am being so paranoid?

It started when I post a message on my fb. One of my friends texted me about that. I guess he thinks that he is the one I am referring to. And now I don’t know he became so cold to me. I don’t receive even a morning greetings like we are doing everyday. I am so worried to him. I wanna know what he is thinking right now. I don’t know now what I shall do. I can’t think well now. I am so worried why he became this cold right now.

This is what I posted is all about:”One of my friends is about to get married but he is still meeting other girls. His reason is that his fiance is also doing the same thing but that’s only his “hinala”. I just want him to realize what he is doing “buti sana kung girlfriend pa lang nya at wala pang kasalang mangyayari””. I know that you already know the right thing what my friend should do.

Please don’t get me wrong. Please don’t misinterpret what I’ve posted. I didn’t know that it can also affect you. I am really so worried right now! I wanna know what you are thinking. Please tell me what’s bothering you. I am afraid that you might change because of that “na ‘di naman para sa’yo talaga”.

😦

first story…

My best friend’s story..

1^st part:

Isang gabi, at gabing gabi na talaga, tipong mababadtrip ka talaga pag may biglang gumambala sa tahimik mong gabi, ang bestfriend ko ay pumunta sa bahay namin. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pakay niya ba’t bigla nalang siyang pumunta. Wala naman kaming appointment eh, wala naman akong maalalang gimik namin, at isa pa maaga ang pasok ko bukas, linitk talaga, ISTORBO!!!

Pero naawa naman ako kahit paano, pinagbuksan ko siya ng pinto, kinausap, tinanong ko kung ano ang nagpadpad sakanya dito sa bahay ng ganoong oras ng gabi. Sabi niya may problema (sa isip-isip ko, nalintikan na, mahaba-habang usapan nanaman to. Pati tuloy pakikipagtext k okay f*** ko, naudlot).

At ayon na nga, lumabas kami ng bahay, pinagusapan problema niya, na kung titignan natin, wala naman talaga akong pakialam eh.

PROBLEMA DAW SA BABAE! Gaya ng naisip ko, babae,babae,babae! Sakit daw ng pisngi niya kasi sinampal daw siya ng gf niya. We’ll nagising ako sa sinabi niyang iyon, at naging interesado ako. Sabi niya, pumunta daw bigla iyong “hon” niya sa computer shop nila tapos, walang pagaalinlangan na sinampal daw siya (wow.makata man!). Siyempre tinanong ko kung bakit siya sinampal, sabi niya “ewan ko nga pre, ok naman kami beforehand, tapos biglang ganon, natulala na nga lang ako eh”. Syiempre tinawanan ko siya ng malufet! Sa buong buhay ko wala pang babae nakaksampal sakin, bukod sa aking pinakamamahal na ina! Sabi ko, anong feeling?sabi niya “ano pa nga ba?!” haha, parang tanga lang eh!

Anyways, going back to my bestfriend’s story, ayon nga, nsampal siya,at umikot ang usapan sa topic na ‘yon. Pati ako kasi nagtataka kung bakit siya nasampal. ‘di nagtagal,siya narin nagsabi ng posibleng dahilan! Shocking talaga tong mababasa niyo!

Dati daw kasi, nagdate sila ng ate ng gf niya!shit ‘di ba?!tapos magtataka siya kung bakit nasampal siya ng malufet ng gf niya! Pati ate ng gf, kinakana! Di lang ‘yan, nagyabang pa ang loko, sabi niya iyong naman talaga nagyaya manood ng sine, gagi ba siya?!haha. ‘yoko na nga magmura, haha!

2^nd part:

Isang gabi nanaman, pumunta nanaman siya sa bahay!grabe na tong lalaki na to, ginigawa akong si Tito Boy!leche, haha! Update daw sakanila ng gf niya, medyo ok na daw sila. Pucha! Ano naman sakin ‘yon, magbreak man sila, la ako pakialam, ang gusto ko, humilta sa kama ko, manood ng t.v. habang kumakain ng tortillas!tapos! Pero may bago nanaman siyang pasabog!explosibo!haha!

May nangyari na daw sakanila ng ate ng gf niya!grabe! ‘di na natuto ‘diba?! Gustong gusto ng gulo, tapos ayan na ang gulo, sakin pupunta?!hay! Alam niyo, minsan overrated na ang meaning ng “bestfriend”. Pumunta daw ‘yong ate ng gf niya, tapos nag-inuman sila, at ayon na! tuwang tuwa pa ‘tong si loko habang nagkukuwento, kala niya natutuwa din ako sa kuwento niya.

Tinanong ko kung pinutok niya sa loob, sabi niya “kalahati”, king-ina talaga! Meron bang ganon!hay! I think nagiging mahalay na mga sinasabi ko, pero okay naman ‘di ba?nagenjoy ka? Kung “oo” thumbs-up naman jan!haha.shhhh…alam na ‘yon!

(this story was really a true story and I can prove it to my readers)

(itutuloy…)

Yesterday was….

I dont really mean it

I am so sorry if I don’t have money to load my own cell  phone.
I am so sorry if I am so poor even I already have a job. (Wala pa kasi ung allowance ko. Nanghihingi pa ako ng pamasahe sa magulang ko! And I really hate it!)
I am so sorry if my internet connection is not stable.
I am so sorry if I can’t text you always. (Kung alam mo lang gusto ko na lagi kita katxt, kachat, kausap at kasama.)
I am so sorry if I can’t make you feel better now. (Kung naiinis ka ngayon gustong gusto ko na mapagaan loob mo kahit pano kaso gabi na wala dito ung pinsan ko na pwede magload sa’kin.)
I am so sorry if I am no use to you right now. (Nakadagdag lang ba ko sa pagkainis mo ngayon? ‘Di ko sinasadya. naiinis din ako sa nangyayari.)
I am mad at myself now. (Kaibigan ko ‘di ko ma-cheer up.)
I feel so useless.
I feel so helpless.
I AM SO SORRY in many ways… I hope everything will be fine ASAP… (Ang hirap ng ganito.)

Those are the words that I wanna say yesterday.. Just got lucky that he’s so understanding… Hahahaha…

Dapat kasi kagabi ko p ‘yan napost kaso ‘di nakisama ang ISP ko, haha… Basta masaya ako… Salamat sa’yo!